Do you feel emotional whenever you didn’t meet someone’s assumption or demand? Do you find yourself “following” other people’s commands? Do you give everything whatever it takes just to make someone happy or be a better fit for them? Well, sad to say but you’re in the position that you can’t decide for your good because you’re blinded by someone or something.
There was a time when I was so blinded because all I see are the things that I shall do for someone. Even though they treat me as a follower, a bank or just someone they can talk or go to whenever they feel down or just bored. I always beg for others’ time. I beg for their attention. I do all their requests and help them out.
As time passed by, I didn’t know myself anymore. I was built by someone. I didn’t know what I want. I’m in the stage that I’m afraid to lose a friend or someone I care about. I’m afraid that they will leave me hanging and can’t live without them. After months of healing and thinking. I asked myself. Who I am? and What do I want? What career and future do I want to take? Because of too many stresses and struggles I have faced, I forgot how to live with a smile. I forgot how to forgive someone and I forgot the importance of “self-worth”.
Am I easy to get? Am I easy to be fooled? Maybe, because I trust others more than I trust myself. I care for others more than I care for myself and in the end, I was broken into pieces.
But hey! I didn’t stop there and just lay down on the bed crying and sleeping all day. I started blogging again to express my thoughts and somehow pursue my passion and dream to be a blogger. I never stop dreaming. I experienced so many failures but instead of giving up, I made those failures as my foundation to continue living. I don’t have strength but I know God is with me and he keeps holding my hand to face every challenges in my life.
Note: Losing faith, hope, and love for yourself is your biggest enemy. You’re the only one who can make a better version of yourself. Don’t be afraid to fall and fail. Failure is just a life lesson that you need for you to grow. You don’t have to depend on other people’s opinions. You live for your life and not for them. Do what you wanted to do. Achieve your goals and dreams because you’re the only one who can do it. I can’t do that for you nor your friends and families. Only you can make yourself high and standing.
If you’re sad, depressed or stressed out, just reach out to someone who can help you feel better. Don’t be hard on yourself. Many people love you. You just have to look around and you will feel their love and care. Don’t forget to pray. God will help you in the way that is right for you.
I know you’re struggling and still keeping your feet on the ground. Do you want to share something? Let me know. 🙂