At first, I thought he has a valid reason for leaving me. I thought he’s suffering from too many problems and struggles in his life. But I was wrong. Maybe I trusted his love too much that’s why I hold onto him and it turned out to false expectations.
He left me because that’s what he wants. He left me because he’s entertaining someone who he thinks is more than enough to be with him. Maybe I am too complicated to handle. I do have dreams and goals I want to achieve. I can’t settle right away without reassuring my future state.
I want to fix my career, save money for future investments, return service with my family for raising me well enough to be an independent woman. I want to help my parents the way that they can stay at home without worrying about what to eat or where to get money because I want to provide everything for them.
I do have strict parents, but I know they’re doing it for my sake. I know they won’t allow me to be with someone who doesn’t know how to respect me as a person and as a woman. They won’t allow me to be with someone who can’t fight for me no matter how hard it is.
Finally, I realized everything now. I will never go back. I don’t need him. He threw me like trash, he left me like an option and he hurt me like someone who isn’t important at all. They’re right, he’s not worth it.
I’ll delete everything. Since these three months were just a “game” for him. He used, played, and fooled me like a toy. I guess, this will be my last rant about him. I will never involve myself with him again.