Every day we woke up in the morning is the evidence that we still have chances to live in this world. There’s a time that I was wonderin’ what is my purpose living in this world? What is my mission? We encountered so many challenges and obstacles in our lives and still, we remain strong and standing.
Have you ever felt giving up your life because you hate yourself so much? Did you ever call yourself a failure? Bullshit? Does life suck? I know, all of us have our ways of expressing the pain that we’re carrying.
There’s a time I almost give up. All I know, I was nothing but a turtle. Do you wonder why turtle? Well, I call myself a turtle because I’m experiencing such a slow phase of my life, career, relationship with other people and even self-love. I’m having a hard time to love myself and my confidence decreased a lot. I felt so much pain and shame for being me.
I always ask myself, why? what? how? why you can’t? what’s wrong? Well, maybe this is God wants me to experience. This is his will and I know there’s a reason and a better future awaits for me. I just have to trust him. I’m not perfect and I never will. I just have to believe in him.
After so much storm and chaos in my life, I know and I believe that there’s more to come but I don’t care anymore. I will face everything with God, as long as he’s with me, I don’t think there’s a reason for me to be afraid. Every day is a chance to forgive everyone who hurt us. Forgiving other people who hurt us is not easy yet it is possible. Removing the pain and burden within us will help us more to heal and breathe freely. Letting go of the past, heartaches and toxic people in our lives are the things that we must do to heal. We just have to believe that we can and entrust to God for our path.
How about you? I believe you are strong for reaching 2020 with a blast! I’m excited to know how did you survive every challenges in your life.